oh man

I just had a very legit freak out. AND TO TOP IT OFF ITS THUNDERING. IT'S GOING TO STORM WHILE I WORK. UUUUUGH. Anyway, back to my freak out. The other day I bought some new nose rings for my tragus but BECAUSE I'M AN IDIOT I bought the wrong size. But I was too lazy to go back and exchange them so I just put one in my ear anyway.. Today I went to take it out and clean it and I almost couldn't get the damn thing out. My ear had closed around the new ring's size and it was so small that I couldn't get the back of the ring into my ear to take it out! I finally got it out ....

LOL THE POWER JUST WENT OUT. Oh yeah, tonight's gonna be great. I can feel it. (Can you tell what kind of mood I'm in? ;))

Well, I finally got the ring out BUT THEN I couldn't get the old back in. So I'm standing at the mirror crying and freaking out that the hole I paid $65 for and spent the last four months nursing to heal is going to close up. Oh man. OH MAN. It was terrible. But I shoved the damn thing through and hopefully it'll adjust back to the old hole size. If not, well.. I'll be in Salt Lake in a couple weeks and I'll just get Patrick to fix it for me DAMNIT.

Okay.. Calm down, Sam.

(Possible new livelavalive shirt)

I'm starting to learn the basics of French using a podcast called Coffee Break French. And last night I watched Coco Avant Chanel to see if I could pick up any kind of French. The only thing I remember is Qui qu'a vu Coco? which is a song that Coco and her sister sing. It's SO catchy, as is La Femme Torpille. I want to learn both of them but the language is so fast and such a bitch, so we shall see. 

Well said, Rose. Well said.

Someone (whose name will not be mentioned) really made me angry this morning. Apparently irl all I offer is "small talk." I was only in Kentucky around said person for a day and a few hours. Sorry that in that time I didn't try to discuss the theories for 2012 or my thoughts on religion or life. What annoys me the most is that he didn't attempt to get into any large discussions. I didn't realize what we talked about would be categorized as "small talk." I thought our conversations were fine. Whatever. I'm not mad anymore. I'm still a bit offended though. Darren Criss will demonstrate how I feel:

lol.

anger!

OKAY GUYS, I HAVE IMPORTANT NEWS. Instead of going to college to become a film head, I'm going to stay at home in my room and play songs on my keyboard. Then I'll record my songs and put them on YouTube! I hope this is okay with everyone. It saves me $30,000+ every year and I get to stay home with all of my Trenton friends!!!!! yayayayayyyY!!!!

Fuck that, just kidding. But really, I'm becoming such a beast at the keyboard. I'm pissed that I never took lessons as a kid. My mom today told me it was because the only thing I would sit still during my childhood was cartoons.. completely understandable. I had some serious ADHD going on back in the day. Now it's progressed to OCD with spoons. Much better, ye?

Oh and just to let ya'll know, I'm SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW. It's seriously unbelievable how mad I am at life and the world and people. GRR. I feel like when I type I need to caps and bold everything to show off my anger. baaaah!